I love to drive a little fast, to push the boundaries a little… I used to pride myself on being able to sense when there were police around and on knowing when to slow down, so that I got away with it.
I eat. I know there are foods I can no longer eat, foods that do not support my body and my way of being, but I still eat them… I keep “enjoying” it (eating) until I feel exhaustion, get stomach cramps and diarrhoea, or my heart starts to race; until I can no longer get away with it.
I push myself to the limit. I know when I am tired and when my body needs to rest, but I push it beyond that… And until now, I thought I was getting away with it…
Dr A. states she was diagnosed with cancer last year.
It is a relatively benign, chronic cancer, but it was a shock nonetheless…other tests were clear and I did not have to have any further treatment. So I thought I had gotten away with it.
She adds that recently more of the disease was found.
So really, did I get away with anything?
Is it possible that the way I have lived has led to this?
Dr A. repeats Benhayon’s programming that her lifestyle and more importantly, the way she thinks, even since joining the cult and adhering however imperfectly to his commandments, has resulted in life threatening disease.
Is it possible that the way I have walked through life, denying the knowing of my body, refusing to listen when it spoke to me, and waiting until it was screaming before I changed my way of life, has something to do with where I am now?
Perhaps Dr A.’s behaviour did have some bearing on her contracting cancer. I’d suggest Benhayon’s lousy food prohibitions, encouragement of disordered eating and the resulting malnutrition has contributed to a decline in Dr A.’s immunity. It’s also possible the stress of constantly feeling inadequate has also increased cortisol (stress hormone) production which is known to contribute to the development of cancer. Those are some science backed observations, but I’d also add the obvious one that the development of cancer can be multi-factorial, and at times utterly unrelated to a person’s lifestyle, emotions and hypothetical ‘karma’. If that weren’t the case, every arsehole that inflicted harm on others would die young.
However, Dr A., in spite of her training and clinical experience is determined to disregard science and cling to punitive magical thinking beliefs, which are extraordinarily confused.
It is not about blaming myself, finding fault, beating myself up.
It is about being as honest as I can with myself from now on.
It is about being willing to stop, be still and listen to my body, and to live from and with the knowing that lies within me, the wisdom of my inner-heart.
It is about understanding that we never get away with it, that everything we think, say and do carries an energetic imprint, that is either loving and heals us, or is not loving and harms us. And we live with every one of those imprints, every day.
So why not live in a way that is loving? I, for one, am ready to give it a go.
I am forever inspired by the life and work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Dr A. has convinced herself she was living in a way that wasn’t ‘loving’, and that she didn’t get away with it. Her merciless self judgement continues in the comments.
…the “sweet treat” is my Achilles heel too…I have had to come to the understanding that “even” gluten-free, dairy-free, sugar-free cake is still cake! It still affects my body, because I eat it from a need. And the need, the emptiness, the hunger, is there because in that moment I have chosen to separate from the greatest treat of all – the love that lives inside me. Now, I see these cravings as a signpost, showing me that I am struggling, and offering me an opportunity to return to love.
Throughout the post, the doctor repeated the mantra that she hadn’t gotten away with it. She believes eating gluten free cake and working until she’s tired are heinous Esoteric sins deserving of cancer. Meanwhile, her guru, Serge Benhayon is running a bogus healing workshop racket, molesting clients, misrepresenting his qualifications, invading privacy, breaking up relationships and families, making false legal complaints and issuing legal threats to those who publish facts, plagiarizing, rorting the tax system, selling money for nothing rubbish, having adolescent girls as houseguests and using covert hypnosis without informed consent to program followers with brain frying hatred of humanity, their bodies and their lives.
Benhayon is not only getting away with it, but profiting from it, founding his own tax exempt College of toxicity, and looking to establish his own church.
Narcissism, lack of forgiveness and the absence of grief
While Universal Medicine cult followers eagerly forgive the misanthropic messiah absolutely everything, forgiveness is not to be found in their writings about their precious selves and their invariably troubled pasts, nor is there empathy for those suffering disease. Dr A. demonstrates acceptance is not even granted to cult personalities compliant with Benhayon’s dictates. One wonders if a single cult member has ever measured up. Regrettably, Blogger F. died unable to forgive her non cult self and therefore in a state of emotional and psychological fragmentation.
UniMed cult members commenting on Dr A. and F.s blogs reveal similar states of psychological conflict. Because none of them can fulfil the impossibly austere Livingness, and are existing in torturous judgement of themselves and others, they show no compassion or empathy. Benhayon has taught them that emotions cause disease and must be annihilated, and to feel empathy for others is to poison oneself.
As a result, the comments on Dr A. and F.s plights are cold-hearted and narcissistic. Followers respond to Dr A.’s disclosure of serious illness by talking about themselves. It’s proof of Benhayon’s success at producing sociopathic tendencies in people who were once decent human beings. There is no expression of compassion or grief, but an overload of self reflection and judgement. If they had compassion, they’d be loathe to allow their friends to punish themselves unnecessarily at the whim of a humanity hating scam artist.
I simply love and completely relate to what you have shared. My ability to override my own body sometimes astounds me.
From the opening title “Getting away with it” I knew that this blog was very much about me as well, how beauty-full that felt.
I’m struggling with food choices, arrogantly believing I’m getting away with eating foods that I know do not support me but because I feel ‘OK’ I keep choosing them.
Wow…what a wake up call (for me).
In response to F.’s death, some commenters couldn’t find it within themselves to mourn at all.
This piece of writing touches me deeply as I too am exploring my relationship with my breasts and what they reveal to me through self EBMs.
A few allowed themselves to partially grieve the loss of their friend, but none of them mourned that she died with unnecessary angst and loathing of the parts of herself or her life that didn’t fit the cult line. Cult members refer to her disquiet as ‘love’ and being ‘re-connected’ to herself.
What an amazing sharing this is. This is a woman that has in full understood what humanity desperatly (sic) needs to hear – the TRUTH about healing. That the re-connection back to herself IS the healing.
One day humanity will know this as absolute truth and that true healing is about taking those loving steps back to who we are, how we chose to leave ourselves somewhere along the way because we didn’t think the world could handle us being naturally who we are – tender, gentle and delicate.
Earlier this year, a cult member wrote about her ‘Mum’s Funeral: Celebration of a Life Completed‘, where again, grief was absent and she betrayed no sense of loss.
Cult surgeon, Dr Samuel Kim, offered no condolences.
Thank you for sharing a most inspiring account of your mum’s recent passing and how love and true understanding can heal the process of dying and death for families and relatives alike. Your story reveals that funerals can be a beautifully enriching and joyful event in our lives when all is completed and deeply appreciated from within.
Comments from Joel Levin and Dr Rachel Mascord reveal just how complete the brainwashing of Benhayon’s death drive really is, and how perfectly dehumanized they truly are.
What an amazing difference from the emotion drive furnerals (sic), I have been to… such care and celebration..
Thank you Jane for sharing with us the beauty that a funeral can offer.